he.

was.

HORRIBLE!

But im so very obsessed with him. he is all i think about and its just sick!

our relationship was deplorable.

sick.

we were both sick! both of us in that stupid belljar.

thirty eight and sick, thats what he was.

tattoos, patchy beard, standing 5'11 on my tears

i kept dragging him deeper. deeper into that stupid belljar.

our belljar!

he held my hand and kissed my head. i'll never escape his belljar.

kissed my hand then he punched my gut. i wanted it all

i hate him.

i need him.

him and his stupid belljar.

- p.a.